I’m trying to mentally distract myself, and have been fighting with my printer all morning trying to get a final copy of my ppt presentation printed. My dissertation defense is scheduled for tomorrow morning.
All in one breath, I’m excited and terrified at the same time. Excited because I’ve seen this journey through, terrified because I hope that everything goes well. I’m worried about the traffic on the way to Philly in the morning. I’m worried about not spilling any coffee on myself on the drive in. I’m worried most of all that when placed in front of that attentive audience they listen to me and think to themselves, “what????”.
I know these fears aren’t rational. I’m leaving extra early in the morning so that even a two hour back up over the Benjamin Franklin won’t delay me. I will put my coffee in my adult “sippy mug” so as to minimize any spills. And my audience certainly won’t be scratching their heads and looking at me with puzzled expressions on their face. I am the expert on my topic. I love my topic, and tomorrow I finally get to share my knowledge. I know this. I can do this.
But I’m still worried. I’ll let you know tomorrow how it all turns out.